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13th February 2025

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Hi there - it’s been a while since I’ve showed up on here, but I’ve been looking at what I think could be a really good platform for my work. I’m not saying anymore at present as I’m still trying t get my head around it, but if it works it could be a good alternative to social media, which I talked about briefly in my last post. Since then I have been back on those sites, Facebook and Instagram (but not Twitter - I couldn’t bring myself to turn over that rock again, except to sign in just long enough to delete my account).

I haven’t done much in the way of art so far. I had a brief return to the sketch book and prepared some canvases for painting but haven’t started anything yet. I’m having a hard time really getting into anything and working consistently on my art practice. So apart from one pencil sketch and a couple of ink drawings there’s not much to show for 2025 so far. All of which sounds a bit negative but I retain hope that things will pickup soon. Maybe I just needed this time out.

In the meantime, here’s a drawing I did last week. At some point I hope to realise it as a painting, part of the Dark Discoveries series and inspired by The Twilight Zone….

7th January 2025

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Happy New Year and welcome to my first post since 2024. I’ve been having kind of a break from making art for a while, just laying low for a period and only just starting to pick things up again. I’ve been making some changes and restructuring the admin side of my practice since the Christmas break, only small steps at the moment and quite time consuming, so it may be a while before I start making art again this year. Hopefully not too long, though.

I thought I’d kick off 2025 with a roundup of books I read during 2024. I’ve been keeping a journal for a while now (stopped journalling a couple of years ago and missed it) and got to thinking it would be nice to list the books I read at the end of the year, to look back on the books I actually managed to finish before my concentration withdrew into addictive doom-scrolling on social media! I don’t want to sacrifice quality reading over quantity, but if I can lessen, or even quit altogether, the social media platforms I’ve been using, it would be interesting to come back to this at the end of 2025 and compare the number of books I read last year to this, possibly as an indicator of how much more time I was able to spend in a book, long-form writing, as opposed to the quick dopamine hit from social media and the internet. Of course there are other factors, such as the guilt I feel when I decide to spend time reading above the TV, internet and my art practice, as if reading is somehow unproductive and so should be enjoyed in bed before the lights go out. And even then you should be sleeping! I can remember a time when my nose would be happily stuck in a book all day long. It was nourishing and absorbing. I could never get bored in a book. Now there are so many things drawing our attention, so many more productive things we should be doing, that sitting still with a good book seems somehow wrong.

A case in point. Boxing day with the family. At one point I was sitting in the kitchen, between breakfast and our Boxing Day walk, and I decided to re-install my social media apps on my phone that I’d signed out of and deleted about 2 weeks before. I think I might’ve had a sudden (but quite subtle) attack of FOMO - I wanted to see what was happening on Facebook and Instagram during Christmas. Within minutes I was scrolling again. Later on, after out walk and in another gap between that and the evening meal, I was sitting on the sofa with my phone. Scrolling. The thing is, upstairs I had a book I’d been bought as a gift. I could have been reading that. A long time ago that’s what I would’ve been doing. Instead I spent my time swiping up. Over and over.

So I suppose that’s what this list is about, not just my usual need to make lists, but to see if I can use it as a catalyst to be more mindful of taking time to read again without that nagging feeling I should be doing something else, or actually wasting time scrolling stuff that does me absolutely no good at all.

What’s that saying? Feed the brain, nourish the soul? I’d like to spend more time achieving both those goals during 2025.

Anyway. Here’s my 2024 reading list. Mostly thrillers, detective and horror stories with some psychology and politics thrown in. They aren’t in any particular order, except a rough memory of the order I read them. There were others I wasn’t able to finish and I may list them as well. (One list tends to lead to another with me). I’ll probably try and give abandoned books another go at some point this year along with the new additions I have waiting for me.

Reading List 2024

Ghost Story (Peter Straub)

Hell House (Richard Matheson)

TheLie Maker (Linwood Barclay)

Lowdown Road (Scott Van Doviak)

When Things Get Dark: Stories inspired by Shirley Jackson (Ed. Ellen Datlow)

The Chaos Machine (Max Fisher)

How They Broke Britain (James O’Brien)

Breaking The Habit of Being Yourself (Dr. Joe Dispenza)

The Talented Mr. Ripley (Patricia Highsmith)

Strangers on a Train (Patricia Highsmith)

You Like It Darker (Stephen King)

The Dark Wives (Ann Cleeves)

Absolute Power (David Baldacci)

The Drop (Dennis Levine)

The Long Call (Ann Cleaves)

16th November 2024

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A couple of weeks after my trip to the Tate Modern to see the Expressionists exhibition I made another visit just to see the general collection. My anxiety levels about going out have been pretty high and I have to make a concentrated effort to make the journey to St. Pauls on the central line, across the bridge and into the gallery. I set myself a task of only visiting the first floor rooms this visit and leaving the next floor for another day. That way it took some of the pressure off. I managed to enjoy most of the works and get round the first three themed galleries - a bit rushed but good to see some familiar favourites and some that I haven’t seen before. I managed a quick look in the shop and the latest work in the Turbine Hall, Open Wounds by Mire Lee. Here are some images from the day.

Lee Krasner

Jackson Pollock

Giorgio de Chirico

24th September 2024

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One of my favourite works from and exhibition called ‘Painter’s Paintings’ at The National Gallery in 2016. This small drawing by Frank Auerbach was a birthday card from Auerbach to Lucian Freud from a photograph of them together at the Cock Tavern. Sometimes a small, unassuming piece of art draws you in and actually becomes your favourite work amongst much larger, fully realised paintings. That’s what happened to me when I saw this drawing. A small, intimate moment that says so much.

22nd September 2024

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Apologies for the poor photography. I remember this painting from one of my favourite artists, Edvard Munch, hanging in a show at The British Museum in 2019. The exhibition was called ‘Edvard Munch: Love and Angst’ and the painting ‘The Sick Child’ (1907). It was dark and unsettling, yet beautiful and inspiring at the same time. An experience I’ve never forgot.

12th September 2024

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The last days of the Window Gallery and with it my residency there with Rosetta Art Centre. 2012. Just in time too because that’s when we got hit with plumbing issues from the toilets next door flooding mine and the studio next to mine. Also the very last day after the closing show stinking of both vomit and a heavy dumping session in the toilet that gave up the ghost and stopped flushing altogether. The glamour of the artistic life.

4th September 2024

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This was a mixed media work I made around 2009/10 for an exhibition exploring the theme of celebrity culture, depicted here as a kind of nightmarish Frankenstein’s monster, with camera lenses where the eyes should be and hair made up torn and ripped pages from celebrity magazines. Even now I feel that exposing myself to the content of those magazines showed an extraordinary dedication to my art practice and the exhibition itself.